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How is stress is stress?

2009-12-13T14:21:00.002+08:00

UNDESCIRBABLE STRESS!!

Omg its been only left a week and a lot of things are not done yet.SHIT!!

went to ayu place to do work and sort of finish up the last bits of that show..

then i continue my product anatomy till 4..

half-way i took a show break to keep me awake..

then i realise it was not good enough so i went to sleep..

in the morning i discover my com was switch off thus all my research has gone!!DIE!!

the moral of the story is to save save save save ur work as much as you can!

I learnt my lesson the hard way again..

Independent

2009-12-07T22:49:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why I will be self doubting if I am a person that people would like..

Cos I find that I am quite lousy at solving problems and always need help..

I don't like the the me in that way,i know i need to change it..

Its just a flip side of me with flaws that makes me don't love myself..

I just need to be a independent lady,however its not quite totally possible at the moment..

medical fees,school fees,phone fees..and goodwill debts..its making me really headache when i can repay them..

I admit i am dependent on people.I am sorry and thank you for all.

waiting for ayu..

2009-11-26T11:39:00.002+08:00

As i am waiting for Ms princess Ayu..just blog to pass the waiting time..

my sickness i guess is getting better by thurs as what the doctor has promised.

But the antibiotics is making me no appetite even if you put the world most delicious delicacy i also wont eat it..YES even chocolates..

Yesterday,i woke up in the afternoon at 12pm..my body was aching that cos me to sleep more than usual..medicine could be another cause..My stomach was a bit churning gas i guess its asking for food,so i went to the coffeeshop just below my block to buy a packet of mee hoon kuey.When i get back home to eat it,i cant even taste anything nice..except pure saltyness.

Seriously,i hate to be sick..i felt extremely lonely when they dun even care if i have eaten anything..i can only swallow my grandma's porridge.She is really nice however sometimes its over the top..she even want to help me wash my whole bag of unwashed clothes cos she say i was not feeling well and its okay for her.How can i make her do that?

Anyway,those who are blood-related to me are not really my family..those are not are the ones who care for my welfare.

Just like Ah Ben kor kor says "do you want to be a lady who is always in distress or rather a successful young lady?"of course i choose the latter.

Its was a endurance test from GOD.I need to pass this test definitely must.

Ren yi shi fong ping lang jing,tui yi bu hai kuo tian kong..

IF you want to continue to bitch about me so be it..its not as if You are going to change in a short period of time

As for the most treasure person,please work hard too..

If its a trial for us,i pray that both of us can pass the test.

i haven really given up on us..i really cannot bear to give up.

I still wear the J that i always love..i dont want to take off..never will

someone to be there always

2009-11-25T13:04:00.003+08:00

after two months of lifeless updating...i decided to pick up my fingers to type this entry again.

i have always love that someone who has been in my heart ever since the day we met.

Cute, humorous,sociable,fun-loving,a loving boyfriend and a gamer at home.

Its really hard to quarrel with him when he always had a gullible/pouting mouth that you will just have to raise your white flag.

Its been a year and a lot of things happen.

My family is always a big issue to me because i think its really not fair that i m always traumatised by quarrels/fights in my sleep.I am really tired of this kind of stuff at home.

I always always always i can never mention enough that i want a family of my own.A HAPPY FAMILY.Why am i so bothered about my family?cos i am so afraid i can never manage a FAMILY of my own.In future,I want to build it together with the one that i love.ITS YOU.

The picture of a perfect family has been in my subconscious mind that i know i have to do anything to get what i want.But are you willing to go through the thick and thin with me?Will i always be the girl in the that white gown and you will be in that black tuxedo?

i have never ever lose the hope between you and i,and i am so afraid to lose you..

You were the reason that i laugh and smile.You were the one who surprise me on my special day.

Everything you have done,i never forgot.

Actions speak louder than words,but please don't take it serious if you are not hearing from my mouth.i never meant to harm you in any way..

please put the trust with me if you still love me.

More sweets,please?

2009-09-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

yes,i am a child.

i need lots n lots of "i love you" to assure myself
just a word from you everytime when i m sad makes me happier a lot you know?

i read your old diary(with your permission) it was funny n deeply describe your feelings to a girl tat u pour out ur feelings and soul for her,yes i am envious for her cos i can really feel that she makes such a strong impact on you.

Maybe i am just over paranoid..but i just cant help myself..i hope u would understand tat i m a girl with very little confident about love n relationships as love at home is equals to zero.
To have a relationship with u that is so good n perfect sometimes make me feel that it is too good to be true..thats why i often ask myself that is it really true?is it happening on me?

Every kiss that you planted in my cheek is like a stamp of gurantee that you are the one who loves me and wants to be with me forever.
well..soon marks one year together..it is not a easy thing,i am really thankful of you who has been tolerating over my bad habits and always give in to me,although u irritate me sometimes..

i am just like a spoiled child who wants more sweets.

Everything back to normal

2009-09-01T15:54:00.002+08:00

woah,never blog for a month.

yup,been mugging with projects and stuff.
sort out that "we" are going to be.
Ha whatever,ill-mannered brat.

~i dont care eh ehe heheh~~

love me or hate me.

red bulb + $%^#()))(&%* day( my ear hurts!)

2009-07-17T00:14:00.007+08:00

i seriously think that this picture of threesome sleeping together is so "dwarf and gnomes sleeping beside giant"

But then its kind of unique in a sense that we look kind of cute,yet very tired.

i still remember how we chiong for the model making,ahh UNFORGETTABLE.

(cherrie,me and ms sherlyn)

This is the most recent picture that we went to TAMP 1 to savour delicious Japanese f00d.

Ohh compare to school, i think its unfit for human consumption and it at a ripping wallet price.(woah~~suddenly i became so descriptive=3)

although that trip made my wallet a little hollow:/

This is a picture that is very contradicting to the current situation i am in.
i am rather like the picture trap between these 3 person.
Its complicated~~~~

a tough situation

2009-07-13T13:49:00.004+08:00

First of all,Congrats to dear dear for passing final theory :)

Something happen on sat due to my p00r organising skills :(
i felt so bad after the incident on sat.
and i feel i owe a explanation to all of my girls.

I reallyy felt very sorry that i couldnt accompany you guys for steamboat.
I find that its really hard to organise both parties together for a meal.
Once again, i am challenge to the the truth that they are two different group of people.
I dont blame anyone,cos thats the way of our lifestyle.

However, i came to understand that i have change my perception towards people.
I am able to adapt to new people and surroundings better.My social circle expand. i never imagine myself to have a big group of friends talking and joking freely before.My social circle expand.

i became a more outgoing person.
I learnt to see things on the flip side while not being too biased on the other. I never deny the fact that i thought he was the "kind of guy"in my mind, that somehow will suit to our personality and the lifestyle we lead.
but deep in my mind i have already been seeking for someone who is fun and nice to be with,i expected my other partner to be more adventurous than me.

I am not sure if i have change to a different person that you have once known.
But i want to tell you guys that i never forget our times together as good pals/sisters.
and i always treasure the friendship that we have.
You guys know me the best k!

Ms photoshop

2009-07-07T19:19:00.002+08:00

This is a picture of both of us,not bad huh?HEHE..
Thanks to Ms Photoshop,AYU!!:)

She taught me during boring lectures,hahaha i really think i am a complete idiot on computers.
How i wish i had more photoshop tutorial,i will definitely score.
Now in school, i am having hiccups while talking presentation stuff with my classmates.
And I am seriously lacking my beauty sleep cos i have been so sleepy at class..

School has begun,gonna work hard and count down for the 2 months holiday to come.
(ps; ivan pls dun irritate cherrie again,run for your life when she scream,thats the part of survival in class,NEVER IRRITATE GALS!)

WAHAHAHA~~

love you dear.

2009-07-07T03:00:00.004+08:00

a fun discussion day@woodlands starbucks

2009-06-24T13:52:00.011+08:00

"DEAR ...I REALLY MISS YOU WHEN YOU ARE NOT AT MY SIGHT"

It has been quite a fun and slacking holiday so far:)

went to sentosa with Dear's gang of freshies

we play dodgeball and some water spashing at the pool under the warm cozy sun.

after play,we went bugis to eat ajisen ramen to fill our empty stomach.

not long later,we went to Julia's place.

we played guitar hero and dear's vocal was a blast.

True or dare is the DAREST THING i have ever seen ppl played before.

To Julia,hope you studies hard when you get back to america.

you will know whats true love eventually..

WorK @ esplanade

with K7 shazana ridwan hanisah

ate at foodcourt with them,my food sucks nvr eat ramen again cos its like buying ramen asking ppl to cook.whatever:/

walk around with honeystars at barang barang

talk to her abt bf stuff quite interesting and sweet

and lastly camerawhoring at woodlands starbucks

its really a joke that ayu dreamt of eric both sinking in Titanic and ivan dreamt of sok tieng and jexter kissing together(ps;IMPOSSIBLE,THEY ARE ENEMIES.)

now then i realise my classmates are a bunch of dreamers just like me HAHAHA no wonder we are in same course.

My thoughts are clear when i am filled with things to do.

All the unhappy stuff,i just hope it will never appear agaiin

its full of up and downs these days i really dun wanna see any disappointment again.

sometimes i just wan to secure my future thats all,is it very selfish of me to think that way?

MaKe Me believe that Its Possible,if not let it Go..cos i am quite persistent for my own happiness

i dun wanna be hurt again.never again.

i want to laugh everyday,negatives will never be in my dictionary.

Thats all i want and i need.

I am leaving to find my smile from the heart

2009-06-09T16:55:00.003+08:00

My life is not as brillant as my smile.
yes,i am smiling but not my heart.
i try to look at a brighter side each day hoping that someone will tell me what is true happiness
however before i found it,my emotions are torn apart on that particular day
i want to be optimistic,i wish i could.
i know theres a shortcut to end it,but my presence to someone is more important than you,i cant leave him,hes my everything.
life isn't a bed of roses,yes, because it has thorns.
I will lie on the cotton flower instead,its more comfortable.
life is simply good without me,why bring me here in the first place?
You regretted now?Its too late.
I am leaving,i hope u laugh when i leave,pleasse call for a celebration.

i am trying to be happy when i am not

2009-05-24T21:43:00.002+08:00

BEAR WITH IT.NG SEE LENG.

I am not going to be like any one of you.
I will and i am going to live a better life that you shall envious.
I will not give my next decendants the way you gave me.
I will be happy and i am going to be happy.
Life is going to be different for me,
What you believe is impossible for us,is definitely not going your way.
I will love him ever after,Dont you worry.

i hate to be sick

2009-05-19T19:55:00.004+08:00

flu sucks.

i think people are scared of me when i am having a running nose in school.
when i try to turn up the temperature,cos i m feeling super cold?
they say"you cant be so irresponsible"its like damn selfish
plus i m not turning everything up..

is like nobody cares ,is not that i want to spread the flu to everyone
And then this is a period of time where the flu virus is so dominant.
and it only occurs to me when i m in tutorial room sometimes i m feeling super cold.

even when i reach home,not a word from anybody.
is like i feel so lonely when i m sick..
hope to hear a word of concern from anyone,but its like you are asking too much.
anyway it has been all along this way,nothing change.

crazy behaviour

2009-05-15T00:50:00.005+08:00

here are the photos of my friends in crazy behaviour in short.

Sherlyn has been dancing Nobody gals non-stop.(she basically dance when theres music):P

Chenzheng,xuehui and I-ling camwhoring.

Cherrie as busy as a bee.

Me?a mixture of them..wahaha..

Today,jiehong took us to the auditorium for a rehearsing of diploma recieving ceremony.

Its a pre-run for graduating students,basically we t00k part to have CCA points.Wa..

there was one man super irritating.HEs the Organiser but everything is a mess.he scolded jie hong for changing the batch of students which we were.The main thing is he reprimanded her infront of us.In th end,its hes own fault.Anyway we did awesomely!we stand up for each other..

Cherrie dun wan to look cAMERA,so zhuai luh..

Faizal seems too relax,Kesaven should close his mouth,the flies are flying in..

Hardworking SHERLYN..Yes your eyes are playing tricks on you(:
Jiajia seems so hardworking...

Sees what Shes BUSYING at..

Me and chenzheng camwhoring,her face look so small rite?

all thanks to me..wahahha
Posing gals..looks so 70s'' la
candid shot-Cheese!NYP cover magazine of the Year 2009.

upset by mum again

2009-05-03T16:39:00.003+08:00

It really feels so sad when a relationship is not being well wished.

sometimes i think my parents words really affect me a lot.
They seems like they dont care but then here and there i heard a lot of comments from them.
Like :"when both of you get married,we will not be there."
I am seriously crying now when i am typing this.
The thing is have they ever tried to accept people?they dont even welcome my friends,not to mention boyfriend.I can strongly claim that i am not meeting up with any bastard or any xiao hoon hoon(gangster).

Sometimes i feel i should not be in a relationship,as its not suitable for me.
I feel sorry for my boyfriend cos he have to endure with the nonsensical stuff i am having.
Its like i am irreseponsible when i know things are going to be hard for me before i start this relationship.Like how my parents going to view about me and him,which i some sort is fretting at the first place when we begin our relationship.

But what i am i going to do is to make sure our relationship lasts true and long.
i think time makes a difference.If it takes a long time to let them understand then let it be.
If till the end,they are not convince,then we have to stick toghther through thick and thin.
i hope we can make it to the very end.I am going to be optimistic and whatever mentions here are all my real emotions.

anyway,i never regret my decision of being with you.

In a delimma

2009-04-24T00:44:00.004+08:00

just went to kiosk to buy some sugar rolls for my sister,a bottle of green tea for myself and 2 lollipops..heehee going to give someone tmr who loves lollis as much as i do(:

My parents has been saying that my sis has slim down a lot.They were suspecting whether she had anorexia or not.My dad LOVES to buy f00d that we dont like to eat.I am actually still ok if i am hungry:P but shes more choosy..so she would rather not eat them.The irony is i have to slim down while she needs to eat more.haix

ohh something happen that makes me in a delimma.
Sometimes i want to help people but then i somehow have to get the situation right before i can do anything.and things dont get in the way as i am not really the first hand information.
Oh well,i just hope things get better for her.Shes really a nice gal and shouldnt be treated this way.Haix when a guy breaks the gals heart ultimtely the gal will be most upset.When it comes to lies be it a good or a bad,if it hurts someone its a no no.so i guess its true that love hurts.

Will there be a possibility too?i hope not...
STAY STRONG, EMILY!

hahaha-look,think and do happily

2009-04-20T20:06:00.004+08:00

school was sos0sos only..

ran out with Rahayu aka ayu today during lesson time..Muahaha:P
went to the balcony top to slack and breathe fresh air..seriously getting very sleepy when the lecturer is talking,,he seems like chanting sutra from morning till afternoon.
probably ate le lunch,feel very sleepy..or maybe cos i slept at 2 plus ytd..

see Ng Chee Siang tell you to let me finish my show you slowly talk to me about your MrKeith.
what done has been done,so just try to look things at a brighter side athough there are not really much hot guys at NYP,open your big beautiful eyes,i am sure someone out there will learn to treasure and love you.A the same time,give yourself time for some self improvement lo..And more hot and nice guys come automatically to find you,you dont even need to find them,built up your inner personality ba,keep the good and trash the bad(ok i know i not enough g00d enough to say you.. s0 lets try to improve togther ba)whats the most important is your inner self,and naturally you will shine within.

And seriously i am not a g00d sister,just treat it as an advice from a friend ba
And aso THANK YOU for your LATe By 25 mins birthday wish.
It doesnt come too late,when your real intentions has reached me.
i recieved le and i am happy :)

Woots!my bdae was indeed a blast!

2009-04-15T14:02:00.008+08:00

Looking at the time....what time am i going home?

Look at my green eyes,arent they pretty?

Thats my green green uniform.

Time is going slowly while you are wait Thats my DOMO!!RARRRRR!!!

What are you doing?DOTA Again?RARRRR!!! AHHH!!!No000000...

THats my elMo balloon!

Same spot,but without a smile..what a pity...:(
wahhahaha..hes thes best at acting cute

Totally chioness on tat day..Hot!hahaha

i am the limelight:p

disembering the beef.

Its the zebra cupcake from Desmond..its cute i dont want to eat and hopefully is still in the fridge.
Its me and michelle!

candles that display my name..very touching and nice

This year,i love my bdae the most!

Thanks to pearlena,ziying,yunhui,godma,xueting,shanbei,grandma,aunt,siew chin and keli cousin..and many more dear side of friends

A note for my dearest darling,

First of all,i love you:) Thanks a lot for giving me such a nice 19 birthday,it will be the most unforgetting that i ever had.I am just a ordinary girl whose life is just very plain and simple,but then you coloured them for me..birthday to me is just another year older..but through you i learnt that i have become a person who place a important position in your heart.You spent so much of effort to prepare the surprise and the hearts you fold,i treasure every single thing that you did for me,come to think of it,is really uncountable.My bdae for this year was full of fun,ppl,wishes and hopes.

i saw my boyfirend kissing with another girl!

2009-04-08T15:16:00.003+08:00

wow wow wow..what did i see?!!

suppose to have good rest at home today due to some cold ytd,didnt work..
but what was the thing that i saw would aggravate my situation?
i guess i wouldnt be recovering so fast..headache and heartache
didnt realise you would actually do that behind my back
yes i am jealous!

u kiss and you carried.
i can never be as light as her or as pretty as her.
i am always needed to improve myself to meet your expectations,your type of girl.
i would not want to see that you are having a fatty girlfriend who doesnt dress properly and actions are always manly
Now then i realise what was the main reason that i want to slim down.

deeply saddened.

lifes getting a new turn

2009-04-04T14:29:00.004+08:00

pearl ,ziying and yun hui met up with me for a dinner.i was quite happy that things begin to balance out quite well,as i still get to meet them for dinner,2007 was a year that we work and enjoy ourselves everyday and night..it really brought back all the memories that we had together,ever since i gotten a bf things start to change and my life revolves around him,i think i sort of neglect my friends when they need me the most.ziying had some issues that i never thought she would have tat kind of problems before,i guess she was struggling.

She and i had a lot of common thing that we share and enjoy doing together.Afterall she was my best pal for 6 years,whenever we share a common joke we can always laugh until theres no tomorrow..it was that Mo Qi that binds us for so long.

If people dont understand her,people thinks shes quiet and bored but then after you know her you will know that shes actually quite funny and cute.She is plain on the outside but full of substance in the inside.We are so used to emphasis on the exterior that we sometimes fail to see whats most important. i used to call her a lot of times in a week to chit chat with her during the school days,and then she will always entertain me.i sort of miss those laughter that we had together.

i thank xueting for giving me such a nice counsellor session talk.
HAHAHA..its humorous and meaningful.
i learn things from her and so did she..

as to my boyfriend,i have a lot of doubts,and i doubt for no reason i know these has no answers

sometimes i doubt that am a girl that is suitable for you, we lead completely different lifestyles.

we don't share a common interest or hobby..but what is it that keeps our relationship long?i came across a show,and it says" you are unique and 1 and only in this world ".xueting told me unlike poles are bound to attract just like the difference between us that makes us attract.Like poles will always repel.what i am trying to get across is i believe in individuality.And yes i am unique!

BIG BUMS i fuming mad

2009-03-30T21:42:00.005+08:00

YEA YES I GOT BIG BUMS!YOU ALL ARE SO DAMN RIGHT.

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WHAT WRONG WITH FAT?

FAT IS NOT A CRIME.

work is fun today

2009-03-28T00:12:00.003+08:00

aaahhhh--tired~~-_-

but it was fun working this few days :D
met a lot of new friends,eileen,weishi,yu jia,liang bing, benjamin,hendrick and peyfen.
they are really nice people to talk to..at first i was kind of keep a distance away from them but then after some talking i am finally able to open up myself more..the more i talk and by standing at the entrance my confidence grew,felt very happy cos i was surprised that i can actually mixed with them well compare to my poly friends..
althought we were all tired at the end of the day but when wwe were able to hit the sales target everyone was like damn happy la...today we hit a total of 7k!!Bossini motto is "YEs WE CAN!!" hahahaha kind of lame when they ask us to do the action everyday b4 we start business,but we did it!somehow through this experience i learnt a lot of things which are priceless thanks to peyfen :)

although we are tired and all but then is the happy spirit that keeps us alive.
i love my job cos i have never felt so meaningful before.

working hard

2009-03-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

working hard in process..50505050505050505050505050 i can even dream myself being slim..xpwhen i am so determined i really hope to see results

Aja aja Fighting!!:)

manicure and gym

2009-03-26T00:56:00.007+08:00

wow..my leg is bleeding profusely now..not a single pain..

i aso just did finish one side of my manicure..bought from daisoh for only 4 bucks in total,cheap!

Yes,i went to gym again..reaally wanted to achieve 50..and hope dear dear keep his promise...have been really working hard on it,will continue to keep up de..dont want to disappoint anyone..gonna rest early tmr got morning shift nites!

A camera day

2009-03-24T00:23:00.011+08:00

Lets begin the story of us taking pictures randomly,today the pics will talk,i am too lazy and tired to blog.From the police station window screeÑ~~

To the rainbow wee see....
To the sunset,we watched. To the beautiful clouds that formed..

To a model tat is posing...

and being bullied :p..

and addicted to the camera..

and lastly my cute drunken bf..haha (just kidding:this is my gym look after burning for more than 500 calories..do i like slimmer?

Dear in shockness seeing me how i slim down..and decided to cut the long tail of his..wahhahaha...:D smile!:)

my results

2009-03-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

oh mann~i am feeling so sick right now,my flu just wouldnt go away and my stomach has been upsetting me the whole day...oh god i think going to be sick again,hope not..
went to granny place today..ask me to bring along my boyfriend,hmm i guess when hes more free and ready to go then we will go ba..haha she approve us but must see the face first:p

today i went to bossini branch at red hill and sign the papers and yeah i am officially their staff.

well i so want and need to get a job and i got it,i am really happy and i m thankful for that..cos need $$ here are the badges and lanyard,hahah i love it cos its green!!

lastly..here are my pathetic results:design hist: B,drawing n redering: C,model making: B,typography: C,digital rendering : B+,colour studies: B,ergonomics:C+,studio project 2 :A

haiz the GPA were still the same as previous,but my design history was a improvement from a D to a B.My studio proj i got A,yes its AAA!!i am not reaaly sure of how they calculate the GPA but then my friend was really kiasu, called me on that day to check out with me my results, yea i know you got 3 distinctions,wheres the virtue of humble?anyway hope to get a 3 pointer next time is like so hard to hit..will jia you de!

i feel like having a bear hug,so sick~wheres my bao bao?

my cutie boyfriend

2009-03-19T14:16:00.004+08:00

i love this picture.its cute!!

i just discover this is the only picture that dear dear smile with his teeth its rare,but precious!!

he normally smile with his mouth close like bu shuang but i manage to capture a candid shot of him with a cute smile..hohoho i am a good paparazzii!

2009-03-17T14:43:00.002+08:00

who says i am a lazy bum?

went to gym today with chenzheng for a 2 solid hr of workouts.
ran the treadmill,'ROW THE BOAT THINGY',cycling,lifting of a bit of weights,walk the treadmill
all 20 mins each.i never ever felT my bum so slim before hahah;P
cos it really train the bum and thighs area never felt so shiok before wen it comes to excercise.
i am still in my sweaty attire now and i am not going to display the pictures cos its so unglam.

been searvching high and low for a part time job but then to no avail,haiz the economy is so bad..real bad:(
saw the news ytd about 1.5 millon of uni graduates cant find a job..when i graduate will there be a rice bowl for me?

i m so tired gotta take a bath and SSSsleeeeeeEEEEeeeeeeepPPPzz ja nei!

full of grudges

2009-03-15T03:43:00.004+08:00

a lot of things crop up and it was suppose to solve in a nicer way.
i could have avoided the whole situation but then i was scaredy enough to admit.

first,its i simply hate it when you know the situation could have a second possibility and yet you did not consider about the consequence.if you wanted to have a gathering you should check out with your sis,negotiation works the best and its a win win situation.yet you never lisen to me.For me i would rather have fun when i know the environment is convenient enough.

secondly,i know you are playful but overly done is simply childish..i tell you is because i love you,you are too easily influenced le,i am not trying to nagged at you.It is not because in my eyes you are perfect and i love the way you are i should just accept it,but it over my principles le if i am not typing out i guess we should just end it.I really hope you get to see this.

thirdly,sometimes i am afraid you may be in trouble with your parents tried to listen to them ba instead getting scolded when you know its going to happen.if i can warn you whats going to happen then listen to me for once?try to listen to them sometimes ba.. be a good kid for once isnt it good? i am happy that we went church together,although i did not know what prayers you made,but i felt quite fortunate to have you by my side,and i really thank god for that.

Anyway,i felt much better to be able to express my feelings freely here,cos it conveys my true feelings to you.If there is a misunderstanding or a miscommunication, i hope to clear it with you,just because i love you as much as you do.

well i was happy(:

2009-03-10T20:34:00.002+08:00

had a great day with boyfriend and friends,cool!!

haha,it was like finally i get to go out with him..
yea kind of treasure it lots n-n
it will be part of my nice memory in my life..sometimes it just makes this kind of get-togther more precious.

yeah,i know most of the pictures sucks cos i dont really know how to control:p
but anyway i am a easily touched person all the things that dear dear did for me i really kept them in my mind,i am quite blur and forgetful,loves to cry easily but hes by my side whenever i need him..i find that its really hard to detangle with him..

sometimes in my heart i felt so lonely.. i cried whenever i am angry sad happy so i cant control my emotions..the things that ought to be kept in my mind i kept forgetting.
I cant really get over with discussing important decisions with him,slowly by slowly i will get it.

as i get older i hope i get to be better to ba,like it says "a year older and a year wiser"

regarding jealousy i finally tasted it.
i am rather unusual to keep asking him about his ex's,its making more doubting that i am not his type,and it really brings me down arghh whateever la..not going to do it anymore.
The thing i shld do is to keep to myself the promise about the excercise goal to 50kg.
at least shld do something for myself at least once till my bdae?

whatever it is,i am happy for what i am till now.positive.motivation is my key!(:

i was beaten up

2009-03-04T15:30:00.004+08:00

today is the most demoralising day i had..

i have no idea why my sis would use so much force to hurt me?
i cant do anything to her.
She seems that she loves violence.
she doesnt listen to me.
Why is she feeling so revengeful?
i simply hate her for the way she treat me,don't you feel remorseful?
i am not trying to be unreasonable,think it carefully...
i am totally dumbfounded for what you did to me.

Nobody seems to understand whats happening..
when i felt the weakest,no one extend a helping hand,afterall i m still alone.
just because you are younger than me and smaller size than me,you think you have the whole world to back you up?
Life is unfair,even you are not in the wrong,sometimes you just had to take the blame and be a scapegoat to avoid further disputes.When you are kind and nice,people take you for granted,anything that needed help you are the first to be called.What are we taken of?They have the right to say no,when easy going that doesn't mean that i do not have the right to turn down.

motivation

2009-03-04T13:28:00.000+08:00

suppose to do some exercise today..

but i was down with a cold and a bad sore throat..
somehow my wii is getting further and further away from me..
haiz how will i be able to achieve my desire weight?

Nightmares invading

2009-03-03T18:28:00.002+08:00

guess i have been so bored that my mind ran wild....

I had nightmares for the past few days..

very disturbing and traumatising..

i had a korean name Song Ga Jin.I was actually dressed in a kimono in another scene and when the soldiers came to ransacked my home i had to change the ribbon bow to a korean bow and had to speak korean to make it more believable.nite i dreamt that i was trapped in a war period that i was a good japanese that does not believe in war and sort of illegally stayed in Singapore.The Japanese sort of started a war to capture those traitors back to Japan which somehow i was invovled.To avoid suspicion,i change my name.But the smart japanese wanted a proof and demand me to get my passport,and i was like shit,then another scene was i was captured by someone riding on a camel trying to hep me escape and then i woke up..

two other dreams i had dreamt of ppl going to the nether world and someone was brutally hack on the face..
amazing huh?
wheres my sweet dreams?

alls well ends well

2009-03-03T17:47:00.000+08:00

just another day passed back home from dear's home.sort of accompany him after his major illness named Pneumothorax.He had air bubble in his lung and suffer some diffculty in breathing so he went to had a operation to have a tube inserted in his lung to remove the bubble.Thank goodness it was nothing serious..he stayed in hospital for a day and was soon discharged.Judged by his character he cant stay there for long :D Everything was ok once again phew~:]

During the 3 days with dear,we recieved a terrible news that one of his friend had passed away in a bike acident.It was kind of a pity that we didnt manage to send him off his last journey as dear was admitted to hospital that day.I think our wishes will reach to him somehow and hopes that he rest in peace.Dear and i will visit you after he recovers completely.

Death,somehow robs away your loved ones and the things you love to do and yet to be done.
Its cruel but neither of us could prevent or stop it.
So i guess live your life to the fullest.
as i always said,life is unfair isn't it?

a Blissful secret

2009-02-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

tell you a secret.

wanna know wat really happen when my phone dropped?
I guess someone up there was trying to tell me stop being to yaya papaya..
i was actually daydreaming and very happy cos exams are finally over and i finally can have a great holiday.(:my mood was extremely happy when i was riding,i felt 得意忘形,overly confident and optimistic.And who knows, 我一下子就被擋到谷底,as if i have a great fall,手机被大卡车碾过,my mood was immediately dampen):so the moral of the story is never be too proud,overly happy like 袁湘琴,in the end nothing was accomplished,and everthing is mess-up.Somehow,i feel that i have some characteristics of her,Dangerous!! cos she is really a REckless driver,watch 惡作劇之吻and you will know..anyways its a nice show!

i m the murderer of my phone

2009-02-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

"haiyoh"shaking of head.This is the action that my dear did when i killed my phone on the road.
What did i do again?
I dropped my phone on the road,ran down by a big lorry.break into 2 piece.
Pronouce death on the spot.
I am so sorry to my phone,it seems like i dun treasure my phone that well..
Actually i dont really like my phone that much,thats why i didnt really feel that sad cos previously it has been giving me a lot of problems,such as shutting down itself with no reason
luckiliy i manage to retrieve my memory card n sim card.
so well,rest in peace.

green eyes

2009-02-16T17:56:00.001+08:00

love my greeny eyes LOL hahaha(:n my complexion too xp..

Happy Valentines!

2009-02-16T01:19:00.000+08:00

i hope dear dear will recover asap.

i want to see him run and jump again thats how he should be!
Life is unfair,but could i at least feel a glimpse of miracle?

sometimes if i could have the power to forsee future i will probably stop him from riding on that day..
i would want to exchange him the pain of his leg after so many things we been through,hes the man that i love and he worth it

Nothing much onV day,but dear was with me so i m really happy(:
when i saw the sensei poking needles on his leg n using the suction to suck out the clot blood,i almost puke,imagine the pain!

i dreamt that i changed boyfriend,Omg what a dream..
but then it was in the dream that dear dear was still the best to me,i did not see the imaginery new bf face,the guy was trying to cheat me but then dear manage see through n warn me
i sort of ignore him at first but then manage to believe him eventually
thank goodness it was only a dreAM..,

Happy 6th mth!

2009-02-11T20:43:00.001+08:00

Happy 6th mth ^_^my darling!
loves
Linlin dear.

I hate my cliques

2009-02-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

I hate my cliques.They suck.boo):

blogger in randomness

2009-02-02T02:19:00.000+08:00

i did something courageously..

not going to mention,cos its embarrasing,not working out..
very paisehARhhh..
not going to do again,wonder how did they do it..am i nuts to follow them?!

got a lot of things to do yet i am blogging tat this very moment,minute,hour,day,2 am in the morning.

i just blogged.random.

CNY

2009-01-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

well well..papa n mama went overseas to china and vietnam.. kind of miss them~

SO>>>is Woohoo!!for my darling sis..

anyway,i went ytd to somerset and had dinner with my NYP.IDGals..

so lousy..mama left so many food at home but i dunnno+lazy to cook so went out to eat with my girls..heeee:P

"pig"ssss

i got a new head band and they say i look like i want to be a fairy:( =-=

but i like it!daisuki!

and the most most most daisuki iis i get to eat with my dear!

once in a while,i devour such a sumptous meal..

will remember it when i am dieting..

at least i ate it before,so its not too bad afterall

505050505050505050505050505050505050505050505050505050505050505050505050!

A Chinese cow(niu) year

2009-01-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

feeling damn awful.
wats happening again,ms pot belly?
"you have eaten too much chocolates,and chocolates and CHOCOLATES!"

well,watever..gonna sleep hope you stop growling>>

just random pics

2009-01-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

I have been feeling not well these days,my cuts did not heal,blocked nose..why am I so sick?Anyway,i went to accompany Chenzheng to AMK hub to do some shopping,and she bought her clothes..and she spent quite a long time there whilee my contact lens are poking my eyes..arghh

we went get a baby gift, while we were browsing,guess what i saw..

This......

I am really speechless..as a industrial designer,i think this designer has fail completely,as a woman i feel so sad for mums..i mean who in the world will wear that to collect breast milk??

I was laughing in disbelief that someone will give money to manufacture this..(shaking head)

Just imagine anyone who wear this.. Its so unglam and disrespectful to women

we are Not machines to produce breast milk for ppl see,shouldnt this be more elegant a bit for goodness sake?

anyway,i zettai dont think it will sell..just for laugh

I was sanding my model halfway when Pearlena call me to pass her the taka badge..

haha i decided to go and eat snake,we went to mac and eat haha

and she took some pictures of me..illusionlly i look skinnier yeah!!

and somemore picture with Eling..she look so shibuya..lols i told her she look like sun wu kong(monkey god)due to her golden hair, and i told her i am the Tang San Tsang cos she always sleep in class sleep i say i will read the scripture to wake her up hahaha...crap really

cutely,prettily signing off..5050505050505050505050!!!

Let bygones be bygones

2009-01-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

a drama happen,my sis and my dad fought.

i may not be the cause of it,but i had faults that indirectly lead to their fight.

i am feeling so calm at the scene,but when things ended,i broke down.

i cried because i could not get what i want across to my sis.

i am persistant,that is me.i warned her but one ear in the other out.

they say i should just leave her alone,maybe i am just too busybody,its her life anyway.

dear gave me advice,i should step away from her.

it could be my persistant that led to her rebel.

Its time for YOU to think for yourself,is it worth it to let it happen ..again?

I seen the pattern so i choose to be the smart one,its YOUR CHOICE.

Further personal advices/ opinions will lead to your unhappiness,I am not doing it again.

Once is enough,

Ms Priceless and Mr Limited Edition

2009-01-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

Ms Priceless love Mr Limited Edition very much.

Will they live happily ever after?

To be continue...

ITCHING LIKE HELL

2009-01-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

i wanna scratch!!!

Healthy changes

2009-01-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

Am i nagging or what?

I want to make a change,would anybody believe pls?
i realise i understand and i am trying to make a change but how am i able to cross the obstacles that blocks my way?

i wanted to lose weight and i determined to do it.Its hard to change the lifestyle that we youngsters have,we have hectic lifestyle,meet deadlines of projects,stress,unhealthy eating habits that lead to obesity,other illnesses such as cancer,heart disease,stroke and long term illness such as asthma.Therefore we ARe prone to these diseases at a young age.
Now you have realise that illness is not a good thing to mess with,so staying healthy is so important as you have to live to do the things that you want.
Love yourself before you learn to love others.

By loving yourself,you would take care of what you eat.
"you are what you eat"its true.
Self indulgence is only for once a while,most importantly:Moderation.
Make a promise to yourself for a heathier tomorrow.

Hmm.. sounds like a health talk seminar?
well,maybe you may think that you are still young,but every small problem starts at a early stage.so better be safe than sorry.

wish everyone a healthier body and mind to live their dreams in 09 and years to come!

Slimming strategy=healthy me

2009-01-08T01:56:00.000+08:00

went to Tampines CC to see a talk show with the health product that she is trying to intoduce to me,called HerbalLife.

I was very amazed to see the aunties before and after photos.Its was like two different person.
Anyway,she was trying to convince me to buy the product cos i was telling her that i want to slim down.she said it works for her as the product makes her constipation lesser and 3 kgs lesser(somemore she already very slim=_=)Should i but itt?

after that,we went to meet dear as she want to see him...haha
we were a bit lost cos i couldnt see the road clearly.It was funny when mich and matt was waving at us went their car drove past and at the same time i was waving to dear's sister.i actually didnt realise them.LOL and caroline say she heard car honk but think they r just rude people..

today was Daniel's birthday too..DANJOUBI OMETDETO!
and mich and matt fetch us there to the place.
saw dear was covering in wounds,a bit angry and upset cos never take care of himself.
carol issue me the reciept and we went home togther.

took a free lift again to mrt station.
caroline told me something that i was quite upset about it.
She said that we are not suitable for each other.
"he doesnt look mature enough"
but what really matters is how i feel,i love him.i dont care.

Time will tell the difference.
Slimming in progress>>

Photoshop fun!

2009-01-06T18:02:00.000+08:00

today was quite a black day for me,i was wearing black top to toe.(no mood to choose clothes)

In the morning,i was feeling super lethargic want to have some more sleep but cannot=_=

I think my dark circles are getting darker...///

speaking of dark circles,its so hard to get rid of it..but,but but..technology totally disagree!(:

This term we are learning photoshop from Herman,how cool is that?Yippee:D

well,i went to experience a bit of the software with my narcissit photo,i would say for a first timer like me i did quite well ahaha~ take a look and see whether you can spot any difference:P

Double Illusion?take a closer look

how nice is that if its in real life?Aww..i guess those superstars use that too ba(esp famous blogger Xiaxue)
well nobody is perfect anyway(:

My menu for today is:

breakfast:water
lunch:bread
dinner:orange and a few mouthful of rice
excercise:walking half an hour from home to school and vice versa.
went to toilet.big business after dinner
feeling very empty now.

Gambatte 50,here i come>>>>

最幸褔的事

2009-01-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事.

The weighing scale is the worst equipment ever invented for women.

I have gotta work out.

Today,my menu is:

breakfast:Small Buns
lunch:none
dinner:apple
supper: hungry~

I really respect those people can hit their desired weight cos there are so many temptations and hunger pangs.

I am enduring to the very end.

Ha~my dad just knock on the door ask me to eat the bread if I am hungry..total irony i have been taking note of what i eat everyday.No Chocolates,no sweets,no starchy food..sometimes i hope i could just be full by smelling the aroma.Arhh..but now at least i understand those people who are overweight and trying to slim down,really very lihai.

Yesterday,i walked from grandma home to my home and climb the stairs.

Today,i climb the stairs with a hungry stomach,never felt so miserable before.I have been like a cry baby these few days..some misunderstanding with dear,but thank goodness it was cleared.my weight was a total disappointment..my result is soso..

Walked home with Sayhien,had a nice talk with him.He was a nice guy,help Maszuin to solve her issue.I think she is too stress le,she couldnt figure out what to do for her model.She is damn hard working,shld learn from her.

Daniel told me to be ++++.i was like?? "Its positivee la!"he is taking lessons now,hope he pass.

haha..miss those days crapping with him and yeesiang.always drink my waterbottle ):

anyways,gotta work hard for my modelling,AUTOCAD..

JA NEH..till next time>>

Happy New Year..

2009-01-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

09 has reach.

my resolution start.

50 is my goal with Wii or no Wii.

its a difficult one fraught with temptations and obstacles but i will try my best!"(:

afterall i dunn wanna to be old that time show my grandchildren of the

chubby side of me=_=

i want to tell them:"look,ah ma is so slim that time"

Resolutions:

Get 10 kgs lesser
Get better results
Get a new spectacle
Get smarter
Get to go for a holiday overseas America or Japan anywhere outside of this red dot.(islands not included)
Get to work more,so can get $$
Learn BMX stunt
Pick up a new skill,maybe dancing?
All the resolutions will be done.

Tada! thats all.end.

Time flies!2009 is comin

2008-12-30T20:10:00.001+08:00

Goodbye to those recession,olympic,sichuan earthquake,Bian's scandals..

New year coming..

Just had a talk with godma..
She is still as goofy as ever she said i am studying in School Of Part-Tall logy.(dating)
She is really hilarious..
my sis had just started to work over there,so she has been looking for me too

I knew she will ask about him
Its hard to tell her about my relationship with him,and whenever I am nervous i sound draggy..
I feel kind of awkward,but told her eventually
She looks forward seeing him LOL.
Cute GOdmama(:

She told me a Story..here it goes

ONce a upon a time..there lives Ms OKie Dokey
She is reserved with her thoughts that people will find her quite hard to understand..
She has filter her inner thoughts so clean that she feel that she can be Ms Univese.
Whatever she says,is a typical standard answer.
She is not sure that pleasing everyone is the right thing to do,but she sure know its tiring
Someone says:"just say it,if you don't like it"
Rejection to people seems so hard,so Ms Okie says "its ok"
Ms Okie don't like to disappoint people,she try to do her best for them,sometimes she is also at her wits end at certain time..

Haha..so obvious
She gave me a piece of advice"Be a happy girl,just shoot"
simple in words,hard in action..
"relax it is not as bad as it seems,love it and live it,not hate it and leave it."

Life is unfair anyway(:

mixed feelings

2008-12-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

Well..too much things happen,cos i nvr blog frequently shall talk one by one.

firstly,its my sis.She changed.i don't understand.i want to understand but i can't understand.

i am not sure what happen to her boyfriend and her..

she just vent her anger by plugging away my wires violently,really like a mad woman.( i was in the admist of downloading some documents)

I am so pissed off that i screamed at her,and then she push me.

my dad scolded me for quarreling with her,and she said she did it on purpose.

i felt so angry that i really wanted to scream i cant scream cos my dad needs his sleep.

the feeling is just like a gush of air surpressing ur chest n you cant breathe..

i cry and tears just flow like beads of pearl necklace that was tore apart..

after the incident, i ask myself why am i so agitated by it?

i dunno the answer.

i ask Deardear,he ask me to leave her alone.

I did,i ask my mum,she say could be work at outside is stressing her out.

i took sometime before cooling down,her mood really affects me a lot,and i simply HATE IT.

Thank you dear for your advice.

Secondly,is happy thinggg>>

went out with dear dear to cass's place which is the SHA Villa if i am not wrong for dinner quite a nice meal overall had santa's secret,pumkin soup(dear say it taste like his mum's carrot soup(: haha)pomengranate sorbet,sea bass in pumpkin sauce and red/green pepper follow but a sweet chocolate dessert.photos in sequence:

and the pictures i took with Deardear..

I Love this PIcture the MOst!DAisuki!

words for my darling..

Don't be afraid to smile!I love the way you are.Always.

You are handsome in your own ways,its a unique perspective that no one can see but only me your Lingling can see,I am artist,remember?

If you think that i am bore by you,you are not exactly right,cos everyime time that i spent with you i treasure them a lot.

If you say you are a bad boyfriend,then i must be one bad girlfriend too.yea?

loves.ling

A close shave

2008-12-18T23:38:00.000+08:00

well,i manage to sold my lao kok kok phone.

morning, i woke up went to my cousin Penny's place to have breakfast.

she stayed just across my block,so it was conveninet for me to savour her dishes:p

Little sophia help to cook prata for me,so guai~

after eating breakfast,we went to amk hub to the HELLO! singtel shop and got my phone.

Its W910i,in black.actually i dun really look out for the phone exterior beautiful or not..

after realising the LG ice-cream a bit impractical cos not really what wanted.

Anyways,i got a new phone super happy,later we walk from amk to bishan to bring sophia to tuition class.Then we head to the bishan market and sell my phone.

Originally it could worth $50,but due to speaker quality has turn bad,it was reduced to $35.

better than nothing,cos my phone actually will shut down automatically after sometime.

I was so afraid my phone would shut down any minute when the buyer was checking:X !

In the night,i went to meet Yeeling in Novena to pass my stuff to me.

LOL she was persuading me to go church la on sat for their christmas performance.

ps:slept too much:pjust woke up to type this blog..so xian~

holiday seasons!woohoo

2008-12-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

all work no play makes Summer a dull girl

Wee...its finally the long awaited holidays!!

haha..

just went sentosa yesterday,its a pity i dont have the pictures..

shall use words and imagination then..

well it was a little drizzle in the morning,

D-ear changed the mtg time to 12pm,

made Xy w=a=i=t=e=d neck also grow long le,so sorry also due to some miscommunication.

we bought food of our own mainly sandwiches with egg,tuna,bacon,chips,cookies and water.

its called"pot-luck"new term from dear.

we enjoyed ouselves with ball games n frisbee(i spelt correctly ha~)

finally dipping in water.Splashessss>>

the day before,i went cycling with dear.

he was fixing his bike before we set off.

so hardworking!Its his passion,hes loving it(^+^)

i was with him the entire weekend haha..(kindaa miss home..)

evening time we went to do some bike stunts.

I am so happy that i manage to stand on bike to cycle aaaaaaaaaaaHHHH!

a pat on my shoulders athough need more practice.(AYu wait for me!!)

i felt a bit upset cos dear say i never try hard enough before i manage to cycle it.

i buang and got a few cuts and bruises i already very upset le,he still say it..

i m actually srtruggling it cos its really takes a lot of courage for girls to learn bmx,

you actually have to risk it and scars are unavoidable..

i guess becos of dear words and my determination i manage to got the feel of it and ride it..

anyway dear did it out of my own good..so really Thank you very much!(:

Dear dear is not handsome but he always have the charisma that attract me a lot.

Eversince we have been together these past weekend,whenever i look at him it reminds me of the first time i have a crush on him..its so unrealistic that hes my boyfriend now.hehe:p

hmm is there a possibility of first love that last forever?

I am sick again

2008-12-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

The weather is killing me~

I am sick again,reaally not feeling well:(

just change a new blogskin,
change my blog add
but no time and energy to update..

FEEL SO LETHARGIC....

will update more again
thats all.

Pretty phone

2008-12-01T19:23:00.000+08:00

omg!

i just saw a new handphone today.

Its the LG ice cream phone!!It so damn pretty!!Sherlyn bought it and somemore in pink!!Damn it..(i think is the nicest of the three!)

Dear Sony phone should rest in peace le,no need to fight fot the last breath,anyway u r constantly wasting my electricity.SEE!! other phone so pretty you should just wait to be cremated.

Ok,thank you for serving me so loyaly for 2 years i will rmb you de..

i know you are hinting me to get that right?Your owner really needs a new companion,i know you will undertand de.

I can only say they are so kawaii!!Most girls will agree with me de..(o^~^)

I soooo wanna have a new phone,cos currently i cant do anything with my old phone and is like turning useless..currently using my darling phone really 感恩..or i dont know how ppl going to contact me.And contract ending soon!!yippee! i m so gonna get a new phone!

today,

my gang,wifey and the rest went to eat,without waiting for me..( i was doing autocad)

felt a bit diasappointed,never ask me want to eat can help me da bao or not..sad

but something happen...

Ah Bin,our emo friend went to buy food and he came up to the room and pass to me.

I was dumbfounded,he was really fast la..

i wanted to give him the money,he kept saying no need..( really paiseh..)

Other than Dear dear,Ziying,Pearl,

hes the fourth one that can see through my mind that when i say i m not hungry,sometimes i change my mind

i may want to eat too..hahaha

I guess i am a difficult person to understand.anyways

Thanks Ah bin!!

Just Monday blues

2008-11-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

ahhh~~Monday blues again..

reeallyy really fed up with selfish ppl..some more bangala..haiz really throw all banglas faces..

i got a cut during ayob studio proj then went to ask ppl for plaster..
then i ah!first aid kit! so happily went to take 1 plaster to bandage..
then bangala came..

"eh,summer what are u doing?"
"take plaster lo,hand got cut.."
"can take ah?!"
"if you got your hands cut"'
"ok.ok..i take" took all=_=
"huh?! u not bleeding what."
"oh just in case i got cut..free mah!

PURELY INSANELY SELFISH.
how about those who need it?
they are not going to replenish them so soon..

super PISSED OFF AND ANGRY.
its a small matter but i just cant stand the atitidue.
accidents may happen on proj studio..whos gonna provide? u?my foot!!my toes are laughing..

now time for the good updates..
sun 23 nov was xueting BDAE!!
long time never see them kind of miss them...
yup yup!!
we went to east coast to cycle!!!yeah

below are the pictures..

Pearlena and our new 18 yr old woman,Xueting

THE FOUR TAITAIS tobe~ hahaha(o^~^)
Kam Xue Ting.Ng See Leng.Pearlena Loy.Lai Zi Ying

Final 4..love you ppl!!ME AND STUPID GRANNY AKA LAO DA..lol

see my face?as red as an A-p-p-l-e

Our finishing line:Changi national service

It has been a long and tiring,but we really enjoy ourselves..

xueting is still as bubbly as ever..

i hope that she score well for her A lvl

She is the most clever in 4T,do us proud yea?

hhahah..manage to KISS HEEr yesterday!!(send me the pics!!)

(to benjy and dear:pls dun be jealous..)

Dearest Santa

pls grant me this little wish of mine..

i wish that we can gather once more again along with bei bei and our loved ones!
( all i want for christmas is ALL of you~)

worrisome

2008-11-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

why am i worrying for?

why am i thinking so much for?

i don't understand.
I really don't understand.

"You are thinking too much le.."
"Actually things are very simple, but you are complicating yourself"

Maybe i have nothing better to do,go and worry others problems when i cant give any help.
Fine,so be it.
I am weird.i worry,i console,but nothing helps than practical thing to solve it.
Its none of my problem but why choose to tell and without telling till the end of the story?

better run off to do work,rather than knitting brows...
time to entangle,ha~

2008-11-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

Weather is bad~

My mood is bad~

I am having a cold...
My ideas are old..
My phone is dead.
things are not done yet..
Continuation of rotting>>

Ahhhhh.....CHoo000000!!!!
Stupid darn cold..

2 months,2 years,2 n many years to come

2008-11-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2 Months to My DEAR!

Hope that We can celebrate on every 11th to come!

I thank anyone who is above(heaven) manage to bring 2 people together on this special day..

I am glad i could share this happiness with the one I love and to everyone out there:

Treasure it for the moment.cos you are loving it.

Fate has brought us Together in a way or another.

Maybe Things are predestined,but its you and me who make the difference.

ps.I Love You

with hugs and kisses,

LING LING(0^~^)

愛は永遠に続く ...

Time is so precious

2008-11-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

Time is so Precious..

this week had been a long and tiring week~!

we had been waiting for Garry to review on our tape dispensers on friday,

the bunch of us that was the last to go,our work are really crappy:(

sketches,sketches and more sketches!!

our course,i guess is we design for human emotions and wants instead of a need.

"We are a special bunch of people who uses our feelings to design what people really wish to have and could benefit from the products.We are selling emotions."

adapted from Garry.

i thought the same too,thats hard.

My brains are crack,yet no idea what to do.

Anyway,i am so tired that i can sleep anywhere,ZzzzZzz

Struggling>>>

My Dear dear came early in the morning just to pass me 4 packets of tau huay.

I am so happy and touched!!(o^~^o)

The most important thing is not the free Tau Huay:p

to me its his sincerity,thoughfulness and the nice surprise.

I have never had a surprise and i am glad that Deardear is the one who do it for me!

Thank you,Dear!!

anyway,i get to see my boyfriend on weekends only,and i am so afraid that when deadlines are coming i don't think i can see him anymore..

I am a very emotionless,expressionless person towards love

I love him a lot,but yet i always did not know how to express it to him

My actions are still very manly and i have the awarkness sometimes.

i felt apologetic to him,but i will improve de..ganbatte!!

Words for my dear dear:

ITs kind of mushy,but aiyah i don't care le!!

Is really true that people always say when you lose it then u find it precious?

I don't want to lose it,i want to say it now!

Actually...

I miss you!

I need you !!

I love you!!!

I wish to see you everyday!!!!

busy and relax at the same time

2008-11-05T19:37:00.000+08:00

WOOhOO!!

i ate durians yesterday at granny hse haha:)..OISHIDESU!!おいしい(o^~^)(笑)

yesterday forgot to update what i do due to my sis haiz..ごめん!

anycase i am happy on the early half of the day..

YEsterday,i went to library with wifey and chen zheng to get some mind games at POP in J8 bishan.But it was not worth to buy so never buy,instead we went shopping around there.

CZ suddenly say she want to eat ice cream/dessert so we compare SWENSEN,HONG KONG CAFE,MAC.In the end,we went Pizza Hut instead, we were super auntie cos it has more variety n cheaper .

Then,Yeeling called.So random.she going to buy some clothes so accompany her to yishun.

She bought 2 white EsPrit top.

Actually,i was quite tired cos only slept a few hours on the day before yesterday..my panda eyes is forming badly(check out the pictures below)horrific!:(

i boarded the bus,then after a few stops i fell asleep.

It was such a coincidence,my cousin boarded the bus and woke me up.

She ask me to go grandma house cos she bougghtD24 DURIANS,4 packs,$40.

haha..and i went with her to have dinner and durians!!yum yum:D

they say got alot ask me to eat more,but then i cant finish

feel like sharing with Deardear..hmm u miss it!lol

彼女が恋に落ちている, 彼女の愛を本当に愛していますか？

彼女の愛は美しい、つらいことだと感じ.

彼女は、あなたの過去の心ではなく、彼女の将来のためにケアしてください.

彼女は、いつもあなたを愛して .

A big stupid,childish quarreling session

2008-11-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

haiz...i just had a quarrel with my stupid dumb sis.

She is just..i guess too "happy"that her exams are going to be over,fear of nothing to do?doing a pre-run of quarreling session with me to kill time?

I needed the laptop to do my project and it is important while she was just watching some lame jap show.YOUR O's r not officially over.MCQ not important meh?GO STUDY LA INSTEAD OF WASTING YOUR TIME SHOUTING AT ME!!I AM TOTALLY PISS OFF WHILE TYPING THIS>>

Life is really full of ups and downs,actually i just hope she can stop that,but her character and mine is the same,we will not admit defeat to the very end..is that what makes us sisters?

today,i seen pictures of my boyfriend with his ex'S

It was kind of funny though at first..

but theres a funny feeling in my heart.its not jealousy.i am sure.

i think i am suppose to feel mad bah..

maybe i feel insecure that i may be one of them in future,someone will see me..

If you see this,you gonna think that i think too much again,but i believe in our relationship can make through the test.I want to achieve the impossible,will you go the miles with me?

Work is piling up secretly,but the time spend with you has made me forgotten the time..

i am looking forward to see you.I am glad that you aree proud of me as your girlfriend,I feel happy seriously:)

The trust that lies between us is the most wonderful thing on earth.

letter of praisal-Jerome,my darling

2008-10-28T08:38:00.000+08:00

A letter of praisal for Jerome,my dearest boyfriend.

To Jerome Tan Jian Wen:

CONGRATULATIONS! JEROME TAN JIAN WEN,you have won a GOLD in BEST BOYFRIEND from MS SUMMER NG SEE LENG.

Dear dear,i cannot ask anyhing much from you,you have done well as a role of big brother,

as a best friend,as a family member and of course 100% devoted to me:) Ling ling's 24/7 boyfriend.
Well done!keep up the good job yea?

What i feel is you have care for me in so many ways that i dont think i can mention all at a one go.

Just for Ms Ling Ling aka me(o^~^o)

-you have warn me dozen of times? that there are red ants nest at the long kang(i am not aware:p and i keep steppinng on it.eekss~)
-have ultra sonic eyesight to see through my mind,when i crave for food(heehe:p you will always give me some first,very sweet of you.you know?)
-always let me sleep on your shoulders when u fetch me home(although its dangerous,i am not afraid cos i trust you:)
-when i am feeeling cold,you always give me a jacket or blanket to keep me warm.(i know you are cold too,dont be macho next time k?)
-accompany me for my lose weight regime to run around your neighbourhood as my personal trainer(i promise i will run more rounds next time!!really..)
-peel crab for me to eat(your mum's crab really nice hahaa!!)
-always keep a lookout for me whether i am happy,troubled or upset..(i know you are there for me and i will be super duper glad to share my troubles,happiness with you,i am learning it:)
-really sayang/spoilt me like i am a baby,(i am a huge baby)
-really act like my papa to rub on my bruise leg(thanks to you it has been well)
-more of it has yet to come..

Did you see that its a long entry?All of it is worth mentioning,each and everyone of them.
Come to think of i never really done much for you,but i will try my best.

i hope that you can be a good role model boyfriend for every boys and men in many years,or donkey centuries to come.

PS,i love you.

Yours lovingly,
Ms Ling Ling
Executive for Love Last Forever dept.

ah~embarrassing!!

2008-10-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

oops! now then i blog hahä:p..almost 1 week going to pass n i m going to see my boyfriend soon!

first,i m going to say about school..

hmm..a lot of project is coming up and lecturer "Curry" sucks.

He got a split personality mann~oh my Mother of god!(still Khairul is the best;)

Came into the class talk to us like sec sch teachers,saying about punctuality issue and stuff in a fierce tone then..later joke about girls are fickle minded in buying stuff(talking about project)

Not funny at all la..

anyway,something happen..

my dearest boyfriend upload my zi lian photos on his blog,arh!!!!
i did those pictures like donkey mths/year ago when i bought my first full set of make up kit.heehe:p

its kind of embarrassing for me is like he going to sell me away like that..

seriously..i know i am a bit weird for feeling that way.. hahaha

tmr we are going to shop for my swimsuit..dunno wat to do seriously..

i feel very paiseh,n somemore now i fat fat dunno wear liao can see or not LOL

HA~

i feel that my life has brightened up a lot ever since i met you.

Summer has really come for me,i am not in Winter state le (for those who keep make fun of my name)

It has been almost a week,and i look forward to see him.

My horoscope is so damn right about me.

My greatest strength:courage

because of that i have walk to this stage,nothing is really impossible.

unless you don't try

i am just a girl who has taken her biggest step.

A penny for my thoughts:

i dunno why these few days

i like the feeling of spending my

time getting to know my polyfriends better

instead of caring more about my boyfriend,

i realise that each n everyone are fun loving n a nice bunch of people.

They were saying:"Summer, why didnt you feel happy?

I replied:"no,i am not.why you say that?"

"but you look troubled after you stead with him.."

hmm i guess i know why,

i am afraid that i am unable to strike a balance between my friends and him.

i am scared that they would find that i am a different person le,

spending lesser time with them,

talking about my boyfriend (most of them are single and available:)

its hard when they cant experience what you are experiencing.

i hope they can find their happiness too..

no matter what,i love you,and my darling girlfriends:)

here are the photos with my beloved wifey cherrie(don't feel jealous k?)LOL
taken at colour studies lesson..

me and darling cherrie

see our c o l o u r ful markers.

thats all..signing off with love..

my truest heart to you:)

2008-10-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

i present my sincere heart to the person i love.

Things are getting better and better each day..
i love him,every single day..

hmm it may sound strange..actually i have been dreaming a lot of times what will my first boyfriend be like"will he be handsome?""how is hes character?""will he love me like the way like drama do,eg,male lead would die for the female lead?"so on..

so i wait...wait and wait...

and finally I found u..

at first,i know u have some guards against me as you are feared that u will be hurt like ur previous relationships..once bitten twice shy??you are trying to protect yourself .

i am not a person who ask a lot in relationship.
i am naive,dumb,unrealistic..
i can be fooled easily without knowing the reason
i am easily controlled by emotions
i am a simple girl with complicated mind(0^~^0)

i am contented with just my loved one doing things that he loves.
My eyes are blinded,i cant see the flaws
i love everything that he do,it just make me feel proud n when he shines,i feel i m shining too.
He had his own spotlight,i saw it.

Love make me see the world in a new perspective.
i love my life,i love everyone,most importantly i love Jerome Tan Jian Wen.

food.eat.walk.run.destination reaching~

2008-10-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

these few days has been so fulfilling!!hahaha..

nvr keep my promise..sorry

2008-10-09T15:35:00.000+08:00

first of all..i apologise i nvr run..T~T.

i m really very lazy lor...sleep sleep n sleep..
will burn some calories bah?xP

ooh hU!~
coming back soon..counting down..5 more days..
sch starting soon..
seen my timetable le..9-5pm on mon..
dunno can fetch you at airport or not...

these few days has been helping my dad to fill in some lucky draw thingy from Reader digest..hope he win some bigga money$$$and the whole family can go Japan!!YAY!!
hehe:D

later going to run some errand and go granny hse to visit her..
or else i will be frame as unfillial grandaughter;(

TO BE CONTINUED ROTTING>>>

miles away

2008-10-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

er hmm(clearing throat)

days in spore are fine after u have gone to vietnam.

recently are rainy days..have lots of question to ask u

-are u eating well?

-have enough rest?

-fun?

-learn a lot?

-tiring?

-widen your horizon?

i m bored to tears in spore..but happy cos just caught up with my good ole buddies!!heheh:p

my job contract has ended.stress full stop.laziness continued?(today haven excercise)lol

ever since 9112008i m happy everyday:]

ohh..ya laughing buddha Daniel heard our news too n he scold n congratulate me?!

cos he say not friend,nvr tell him..

its hard to tell ma..

well he said"your wish has come true"

i think so too :)

anyway that time u ask me whether did i miss u on the very next day we meet again i was a bit dots...n i dun know why couple miss each other so fast de ah?

but now i understand..

i really miss you,when u r not around,i cried,i know its a bit childish but cant help it.

nvr think a lot..SERIOUSLY

currently updating my blog everyday tilll u come back..

hope to see you real soon.

Rotting in Progress>>>>>

ITs Me/You that make the DIFFERNCE.

2008-09-25T10:33:00.000+08:00

Finally, in love...

before this,i m just like any singleton,who thinks that good guys have all vanished or married..

they will never find you..well..to anyone out there YOU Have got to find them yourself and

STOP that:

-grumbling over there

-immersing yourself in K drama or T idol drama,its meaningless,in real life it doesnt happen..

-OTAKU habit

-high expectations

Instead..

~be happy of who you are,be yourself

~go out and make many friends

~stay active,do some excercise(more excercise!!)

~be smarter..have a designer mind

~help those who are in need,they really need our help,they don't expect a lot..

hahaha...thats my life i want to have.

Your Dirty little secret:Exposed!!(not really)

2008-08-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

today i was feeling groggy,lazy sleepy..

you know holiday mah,,so must sleep more from 12am to 6pm..I Am a Pig

just went to view some mails and blogs

sometimes i wonder why God created human with so many emotions..

some caring,self centred,jealousy,flitatious,fickled minded n many

in life, i guess there is no right and wrong.

in the toughest situation,you really have to make a decision,A or B that direct..you cant
run away from it..when you choose A,you will "aiyah.shld have choose B instead.. ''and vice versa.actually,no matter what you choose,you shld not regret your choice.Theres bound to be faults here and there so no point crying over spilled milk.Most importantly.you must know what you really need or want..

we are humans and living in this pathetic planet that one fine day we may go extinct as dinos do,hundreds n hundreds million years ago..Do not regret a single decision you have made..what decision you made has went through your mind which was the best solution,treat a mistake as a new found knowledge and dont repeat your mistakes again just like a baby learning his/her steps..

my life is experiencing a metamorphosis..

ps: Shit!i am sounding like ah Bin..lol

Ms BLOG is stagnant

2008-08-14T01:22:00.000+08:00

"oh,well ms blog...

"i haven seen u for weeks le bah..i reallyt should make a habit to talk to u everyday..u agree?(nods).

"i know u r lonely out there..so am i.."

i guess my life is so boring that is not worthwhile mentioning
"u will be sleeping soon right"?...can see ur eyes r shutting..dont lie!(yawns~)

OMG...what am i doing??!!!

i m talking to a blog yes..i just did..sad case

this few weeks have been tiring,bleeding,happy,sleepyhungry,fattening up,shopping craves,sleepingzzz,cooking for ppl.stayovers.

tiring:i was doing up ayob stuff..the stupid melon model that looks like a condom(enlarge)
studying for comm skilln methodology test
staying up late for no reason

bleeding: obviously from those cutting for d model(oh my Mother of God!)
happy: you know it

hungry: good food is swallowing me up..cant resist

fattening up: obviously due to reason above..lol

shopping craves: with our cherrie n sherlyn how can dun shop till we drop?!

sleeping: very tired after finishing project slept straight for 10 hrs

cooking:in the wee hours,one fine night,me n sheryln were hungry..decided to cook noodles for ourselves n cherrie's younger bro..our efforts were not appreciated(???)

stayovers:Yes!we were staying at cherrie's place for 2 solid weeks..all of the above mention took place at her home.

All right..thats all folks..blog more again

Cliques

2008-07-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

(wifey n me)

Cherrie and me discussing on the topic "Height". She is always wondering why i am so tall and stuff,complained about difficulty in talking as eye level is too tall.Well,we shared the same irony,she needs to get the smallest size of shoes while me the biggest(for BIG FOOT) me

Our Singapore Crazy Girl, Sherlyn Chan Qiu Yi(its a rare sight to see her put her finger on her mouth)reminds you in kindergarten when those teachers shut your mouth by asking you to placed finger on your mouth.WHOA..sherlyn you are quiet at last

Our EMO Malaysian Girl, Wong Siak Hui:"Boyfriend~i miss you~~"

Our China girl,Chen Zheng (striking a cute pose)

Our Beauty QUeenie, Taipei 101

Well..this week has been a tiring week for me...really super tired

we did not sleep for 3 days because of ayob's project..

Got cuts n bruises everywhere

Our dear poo princess Ms Sherlyn Got cut n bled for 10 times in a single night..poor thing

(be careful lah!!its a bloody scene >_<..)

we have good supper too..

Cherrie is really a good future wife to be..

She knows how to cook delicous maggi noodles with PLENTIFUL TOPPINGS!!

ITs really VERY NICE>>ME n SHErlyn wan a 2nd serving...

she is just abit noisy,bossy,quarrelsome,loud thats all...but overall shes nice

i actually stay at her place for 3 days

she really knows her stuff well,very comprehesive,know waht shes doing..

i begin to respect her if she stop calling"SUMMER~"all the way its loud n embarassing!

Thats all folks!

Stayovers

2008-07-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

well recently i bet yeeling must be sick and tired of seeing me every weekend lol..xD

i have been going to yl house for the past 2 weeks to stayover at her house.It is sort of mimicking american style bah like PJ parties n pillow fights that kind of stuff?but of course we nvr did that mah,one turned 18 the other going to be in oct,pls loh

Her parents are wonderful ppl esp her mum:''auntie,you are a nice cook!!"
i have never had an "ang mo "breakfast before so i was moved to tears when i saw scrambled eggs,toasts,BACON,mini cheese hotdogs nicely placed on a plate.It reminds me of the Enid Blyton's books when i was a kiddo,they mention about bacon sandwich and stuff sort of breakfast.At that moment of time back then, i only could imagine wats is like..finally i know u MR BACON>>nice to meet you!

i will not be surprised if someone say i m a mountain tortoise..
during my chilhood days i never thought of having a "'áng mo"style meal
very grateful now..

Hey.YL really thanks for eveything at your placexp
p.s(Lets work hard and play hard hard k?)

i was Cheated!!-Communicaton barrier...

2008-06-29T14:10:00.000+08:00

i didnt know that one day when i reach 18 my life start to revolve around this guy...

haiz,a lot of ppl tell me that i m a dummy for relationship,so until mr right come,i shouldnt do anything..i feel like i m like a princess being protected(I KNOW,THIS IS JUST AN EXAMPLE)
i m unaware of things outside,n stuff i m now trying to learn a lot of things..trying to keep up with u guys that r around my age.
It seems ridiculous but i have no control of whatever i want to do even i m 18 now.My dad is a control freak n me n my sis are not breathing any fresher air le,he barged into our room whenever he pleased and is totally n privacy is invavded..

well,in my family,we don't really communicate,frankly speaking my best pals parents know me better than my parents know them.i am not sure why my parents do not welcome my friends and stuff sometimes i feel that they r living in a secluded island that prevent people from entering my house...NO its not my house anyway.i have a lot of communication problem with ppl cos probably its a trend in our house that we dun really talk it out to one another..

in the end,i found out from other ppl that he is still waiting for unknown girl(M)
He did things that i misunderstood...
everything that happen is what i never thought would happen to me...
i have mixed emotions happy cos it happened,sad cos i learnt the truth...
my parents have no clue about this...
i only told my sis who is in blood relation with me...

and now i m telling dear Mr Blog n jevelle..
i brought it to myself i blame no one...serve me right

ps.i will let more ppl know my blog when time is r right.AHCHooooo....
(hope you are happy)

I do not have a Double Personality

2008-06-27T12:29:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,Chen zheng and gang wants to eat a bbq at somewhere ulu in Chainatown.

Unexpectedly,it was located just beside LI FEI HUI Singing studio,the guy that was one of the judges at Superstar in ChannelU.

Ok, the decor of the restaurant was quite oriental,yup it was a chinese restaurant.Not a single person at the point of time,which was 3 plus.Wah,you should have seen the lady boss face..we felt we were not welcome loh...xiao make that kind of face who wants to go there n eat?probably she thinks that we r just kiddos n do not have much penny with us...u know like poor scholars in china long time ago~

Anyways,(learnt frm him :P)
they ordered the bbq thing which had like chicken n pigs heart+ their intestines n stuff..
Who in the earth eats that right?!yea They ate them. ChenZheng strongly recommended that.
i guess she came from China which they eat any part of the animal body which is a delicacy to them.i ordered the beijing Ja jiang mian,it was a la carte.It was salty for the meat gravy thingy but blends well with the noodles.i have to admit the noodles was delicious,a bit taste like udon.

They were like bbqing the stuff,i was watching as saliva almost drool as the food was delievered into their mouths,"nice meh?"i asked,"hoho sek ah!"they said in cantonese.recently two hongkongies appeared in the gang.not long later they quietly threw stuff into my plate,afraid that the lady boss will see n make me give extra charges.OK i Ate IT TOo..it was not bad actually.we actually ate for 2 hours!

later,sherlyn pull me to go kbox,i was reluctant to go at first,nvr expect myself to be so high as i was singing those songs.Taipei I-ling 1 voice was brilliant,oh...i was so envious..she can really reach high notes..she got a nice soothing voice as she k Jolin tsai.Rainie yang.Landy wen. songs. OH mann!! they actually videotaped me n sherlyn singing Alan Luo"Zhem ming Tian ZI".we were like 2 madwoman just release from woodbridge or wat..

Haiz,the important thing is that they could not believe that i was quiet in class n never expect i could be so high at kbox..it was really awkward after i saw d video,i guess thats my fate..always have a lot embarrassing moments .But i think we should be crazy once in a while...aferall living spore is so stress..really hope thay dun use that to threaten me to display to public.

Conclusion:i do not have a split or double personality.

Days after confessions--reminiscing my first time

2008-06-25T10:00:00.000+08:00

Wow, this is my second entry so far...

i went Mt Faber with him,scenary was beautful,have to admit that he is a romantic person;)

a lot of first time spend with him...yeah

First time on bike hugging someone waist!!Arh!!it waa a bit awkward but i actually like the feeling hehe...its just like i m holding on to a precious thing,doesn't wan to let go...

First time meeting him at work...i thought working was boring n stuff just hope that time pass quickly..but he went to talk to me,but i was full of grudges hahaha tons n tons of baby clothes need to fold!!Chaotic mumsy n children was creating a hell out of the noise....

"can i have this size pls in that design?":"hah? you dun have already?"blah blah blah n it goes on...n more of clothes turned into a HUGE Mountain.Frankly speaking, i curse those ppl when i m folding them,First time,i was threatened to get a complaint!?She is freakingly UNREASONABLE!!!Not going to mention,unless u want to see FLAMES OF FIRE tearing ur SCREEN.
What is SHE N THEY trying to find man~?Gold?! Silver?! Diamond?! Sorry lah none of the above!

anyway he is a nice,talk to me n stuff,i was blabberring complaints n nonsense with him.

First time,I really dunno wat happen to me...probably love-struck.infactuation,desperate,u name it n i will be it...everything just went weird..my heart really feel like sumtin is stuck there n i cannot breathe..omg hate that feeling...seriously no kidding

Unconciously, i asked him out to ride on bicycle during vacation,he agreed!actually my so-call poly friends actually fly me an aeroplane...n he let me waited for 1 solid hour

18 years of my life has been boring,until he came in...i actually confessed to a him..thick-skinned i maybe,but i dun regret it.i dunno wat lies ahead of me i m prepared to take the risks.Instead of waiting for someone to love me..i will love someone instead..instead of fearing tis n that i fear no more,is this wat they always say "love really makes someone stronger?"

i feel like i m trying to make changes to cater to him,but i welcome those changes,erm i guess i have to make some sacrifices to be with someone i like,although it may be a disadvantage to me"Is it worth it?Is that wat u want?"i really dunno.Well,i guess i have to give it a try.

Afterall,All of this are my FIRST TIME!(psst..except my blog entry)

N I GUESS THE ONLY READER FOR THIS POST WILL BE....(drums roll)JevelleY**YL

ps.[thks for guiding along,n some more guidance pls?i m really a dummy:)]

Sleepover at YeelingJevelle's home

2008-06-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

we r having pyjamas party!!yay!!

i think i not gonna finish my 50 sketches loh...
die le lah....
haiz i did the most courageous thing in my 18 years of life

*+(SUMMERKINS)+*