❝Blog Entries
Sunday, December 13, 2009
How is stress is stress?
UNDESCIRBABLE STRESS!!
Blabbering @
Omg its been only left a week and a lot of things are not done yet.SHIT!!
went to ayu place to do work and sort of finish up the last bits of that show..
then i continue my product anatomy till 4..
half-way i took a show break to keep me awake..
then i realise it was not good enough so i went to sleep..
in the morning i discover my com was switch off thus all my research has gone!!DIE!!
the moral of the story is to save save save save ur work as much as you can!
I learnt my lesson the hard way again..
Blabbering @
Monday, December 7, 2009
Independent
Sometimes I wonder why I will be self doubting if I am a person that people would like..
Blabbering @
Cos I find that I am quite lousy at solving problems and always need help..
I don't like the the me in that way,i know i need to change it..
Its just a flip side of me with flaws that makes me don't love myself..
I just need to be a independent lady,however its not quite totally possible at the moment..
medical fees,school fees,phone fees..and goodwill debts..its making me really headache when i can repay them..
I admit i am dependent on people.I am sorry and thank you for all.
Blabbering @
Thursday, November 26, 2009
waiting for ayu..
As i am waiting for Ms princess Ayu..just blog to pass the waiting time..
my sickness i guess is getting better by thurs as what the doctor has promised.
But the antibiotics is making me no appetite even if you put the world most delicious delicacy i also wont eat it..YES even chocolates..
Yesterday,i woke up in the afternoon at 12pm..my body was aching that cos me to sleep more than usual..medicine could be another cause..My stomach was a bit churning gas i guess its asking for food,so i went to the coffeeshop just below my block to buy a packet of mee hoon kuey.When i get back home to eat it,i cant even taste anything nice..except pure saltyness.
Seriously,i hate to be sick..i felt extremely lonely when they dun even care if i have eaten anything..i can only swallow my grandma's porridge.She is really nice however sometimes its over the top..she even want to help me wash my whole bag of unwashed clothes cos she say i was not feeling well and its okay for her.How can i make her do that?
Anyway,those who are blood-related to me are not really my family..those are not are the ones who care for my welfare.
Just like Ah Ben kor kor says "do you want to be a lady who is always in distress or rather a successful young lady?"of course i choose the latter.
Its was a endurance test from GOD.I need to pass this test definitely must.
Ren yi shi fong ping lang jing,tui yi bu hai kuo tian kong..
IF you want to continue to bitch about me so be it..its not as if You are going to change in a short period of time
As for the most treasure person,please work hard too..
If its a trial for us,i pray that both of us can pass the test.
i haven really given up on us..i really cannot bear to give up.
I still wear the J that i always love..i dont want to take off..never will
Blabbering @
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
someone to be there always
after two months of lifeless updating...i decided to pick up my fingers to type this entry again.
Blabbering @
i have always love that someone who has been in my heart ever since the day we met.
Cute, humorous,sociable,fun-loving,a loving boyfriend and a gamer at home.
Its really hard to quarrel with him when he always had a gullible/pouting mouth that you will just have to raise your white flag.
Its been a year and a lot of things happen.
My family is always a big issue to me because i think its really not fair that i m always traumatised by quarrels/fights in my sleep.I am really tired of this kind of stuff at home.
I always always always i can never mention enough that i want a family of my own.A HAPPY FAMILY.Why am i so bothered about my family?cos i am so afraid i can never manage a FAMILY of my own.In future,I want to build it together with the one that i love.ITS YOU.
The picture of a perfect family has been in my subconscious mind that i know i have to do anything to get what i want.But are you willing to go through the thick and thin with me?Will i always be the girl in the that white gown and you will be in that black tuxedo?
i have never ever lose the hope between you and i,and i am so afraid to lose you..
You were the reason that i laugh and smile.You were the one who surprise me on my special day.
Everything you have done,i never forgot.
Actions speak louder than words,but please don't take it serious if you are not hearing from my mouth.i never meant to harm you in any way..
please put the trust with me if you still love me.
Blabbering @
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
More sweets,please?
yes,i am a child.
i need lots n lots of "i love you" to assure myself
just a word from you everytime when i m sad makes me happier a lot you know?
i read your old diary(with your permission) it was funny n deeply describe your feelings to a girl tat u pour out ur feelings and soul for her,yes i am envious for her cos i can really feel that she makes such a strong impact on you.
Maybe i am just over paranoid..but i just cant help myself..i hope u would understand tat i m a girl with very little confident about love n relationships as love at home is equals to zero.
To have a relationship with u that is so good n perfect sometimes make me feel that it is too good to be true..thats why i often ask myself that is it really true?is it happening on me?
Every kiss that you planted in my cheek is like a stamp of gurantee that you are the one who loves me and wants to be with me forever.
well..soon marks one year together..it is not a easy thing,i am really thankful of you who has been tolerating over my bad habits and always give in to me,although u irritate me sometimes..
i am just like a spoiled child who wants more sweets.
Blabbering @
i need lots n lots of "i love you" to assure myself
just a word from you everytime when i m sad makes me happier a lot you know?
i read your old diary(with your permission) it was funny n deeply describe your feelings to a girl tat u pour out ur feelings and soul for her,yes i am envious for her cos i can really feel that she makes such a strong impact on you.
Maybe i am just over paranoid..but i just cant help myself..i hope u would understand tat i m a girl with very little confident about love n relationships as love at home is equals to zero.
To have a relationship with u that is so good n perfect sometimes make me feel that it is too good to be true..thats why i often ask myself that is it really true?is it happening on me?
Every kiss that you planted in my cheek is like a stamp of gurantee that you are the one who loves me and wants to be with me forever.
well..soon marks one year together..it is not a easy thing,i am really thankful of you who has been tolerating over my bad habits and always give in to me,although u irritate me sometimes..
i am just like a spoiled child who wants more sweets.
Blabbering @
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Everything back to normal
woah,never blog for a month.
yup,been mugging with projects and stuff.
sort out that "we" are going to be.
Ha whatever,ill-mannered brat.
~i dont care eh ehe heheh~~
love me or hate me.
Blabbering @
yup,been mugging with projects and stuff.
sort out that "we" are going to be.
Ha whatever,ill-mannered brat.
~i dont care eh ehe heheh~~
love me or hate me.
Blabbering @
Friday, July 17, 2009
red bulb + $%^#*()))*(&%* day( my ear hurts!)
i seriously think that this picture of threesome sleeping together is so "dwarf and gnomes sleeping beside giant"But then its kind of unique in a sense that we look kind of cute,yet very tired.
i still remember how we chiong for the model making,ahh UNFORGETTABLE.
(cherrie,me and ms sherlyn)This is the most recent picture that we went to TAMP 1 to savour delicious Japanese f00d.
Ohh compare to school, i think its unfit for human consumption and it at a ripping wallet price.(woah~~suddenly i became so descriptive=3)
although that trip made my wallet a little hollow:/
This is a picture that is very contradicting to the current situation i am in.i am rather like the picture trap between these 3 person.
Its complicated~~~~
Blabbering @
